Betrayal (verb):
to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling
to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to
In the last few days, many people asked me how I felt about the whole situation. It was a strange question because I could not describe it. In one of the conversations with my friend, I discovered it - 'Betrayed'.
In the movie 'Gone Girl', when Nick Dunne meets Amy Elliot for the first time, they pass through a sugar storm in the streets of New York. He gently caresses her lips for the sugar coating and then kisses her. Later in the movie, when Amy goes to surprise Nick on a snowy night, she finds him standing outside the bar with a young girl. He gently leans towards her, caresses the snow on her lips and kisses her.
In the initial days of our relationship, given our hectic travel we used to text a lot. He was very good with words. He had the ability to twist them and make sentences that absolutely melted your little heart. Though once in a blue moon, I used to throw something at him, for which he would be at the loss of words. He would then quickly send an emoticon and write, 'An emoticon is the best way to get out of a sticky situation'.
Last time when we met, his phone was beeping continuously. I could see that the notification was something in pink and red and tried to decipher it. I asked him and he told me that his friends had installed the app. We got ready to go out, when his phone beeped again and I took his phone to see it. It was a dating app which had his profile and listed his interests, preferences and chats with random women. I opened one of them and he was suggesting the girl to meet up. She replied with an emoticon and he wrote, 'Well, an emoticon is surely the best way to get out of a sticky situation!'. I read the line, a couple of more times. The words still remained unchanged. That moment, I felt a stinging pain in the center of my left palm. I never thought feelings could have strong physical manifestations.
Every day, each breath makes the boulder in my heart grow bigger till it starts to suffocates me.
to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling
to disappoint the hopes or expectations of; be disloyal to
In the last few days, many people asked me how I felt about the whole situation. It was a strange question because I could not describe it. In one of the conversations with my friend, I discovered it - 'Betrayed'.
In the movie 'Gone Girl', when Nick Dunne meets Amy Elliot for the first time, they pass through a sugar storm in the streets of New York. He gently caresses her lips for the sugar coating and then kisses her. Later in the movie, when Amy goes to surprise Nick on a snowy night, she finds him standing outside the bar with a young girl. He gently leans towards her, caresses the snow on her lips and kisses her.
In the initial days of our relationship, given our hectic travel we used to text a lot. He was very good with words. He had the ability to twist them and make sentences that absolutely melted your little heart. Though once in a blue moon, I used to throw something at him, for which he would be at the loss of words. He would then quickly send an emoticon and write, 'An emoticon is the best way to get out of a sticky situation'.
Last time when we met, his phone was beeping continuously. I could see that the notification was something in pink and red and tried to decipher it. I asked him and he told me that his friends had installed the app. We got ready to go out, when his phone beeped again and I took his phone to see it. It was a dating app which had his profile and listed his interests, preferences and chats with random women. I opened one of them and he was suggesting the girl to meet up. She replied with an emoticon and he wrote, 'Well, an emoticon is surely the best way to get out of a sticky situation!'. I read the line, a couple of more times. The words still remained unchanged. That moment, I felt a stinging pain in the center of my left palm. I never thought feelings could have strong physical manifestations.
Every day, each breath makes the boulder in my heart grow bigger till it starts to suffocates me.
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